Growing up...

So today I traveled the 3 hours journey back to school... I cant say i was thrilled to be leaving, but being at school is so fun! I have grown to love my roomates and being on my own! I feel like a lot has happened to me in just a few short weeks... I have become a changed person. I am still me... but this new added responsibility has taken ahold of me and wow, its so great!! I love being on my own... though i wish it were a couple 3 hours closer to my family and Michael! I was doing the dishes the other day... a task that i wish others would do... and i was thinking about how this was never gonna end... Im gonna be washing dishes for the rest of my life it seems. Now, that fact was kinda a bummer, but i couldnt help but smile! Once I finish college, I'll get married, and do dishes then. Then Ill have a family, and do their dishes... until they're older i guess... then i'll get a break. Then they'll leave and I'll be doing them again. Hopefully a dishwasher comes into play somewhere along the lines... but this really isnt about dishes. Its about life. Life is so short. I feel like it just never slows down. I remember my freshman year of high school and how i just dreamed of being older and being able to date, and finding that one guy who would marry me... and now, i am that girl... and its odd. I feel like i spent my whole childhood looking up to these moments, and now they are here and all i want to do is rewind. Dont get me wrong, i love being older... Its pretty wonderful! :) But some days i really just cant help that i was still 7!
Anyways, this weekend i got to spend a lot of time with Michael and his family! Oh i just love them all so much!! Its so great to feel welcome and loved! They all teach me so much about how i want my life to pan out and the wonderful women I have to live up to! :)

I'll just be different... thanks! :]

So today I turned in my Honors English essay that i have been slaving over for the past two weeks! I was pretty excited to turn it in because i felt it was well written. It was even more exciting to find out that the teacher scheduled conferences to grade the paper with you. So, being anxious to hear my grade, I signed up for the first available time that I could. I went in after my classes got out and sat down for my paper to be praised.... i was feeling a little arrogant.... He starts looking at it and the first thing he says is "The titles flat." Well thats nice mister, its words on a paper... not seeing my 3-D animation anywhere else. Of course, i knew he meant it sucked, so i just took it in, titles arent my thing. Then the intro... boy did he tear that apart. I worked forever to word it just perfectly, and what does he say? Your wording is bad. OUCH! So then we continued... he found a lot of things he really liked in the essay, but told me not to be so stylistic... apparently i have to earn the right to stylize. DUMB!!!!!! If i wanna use fragment sentences, well by golly i will! I dont need to be famous to write like i am! Anyways, so essay comes to the end... conclusion paragraph left... im bracing myself, cause i thought it was the worst part... and guess what! He like it! He said it sounded elegant. I think it sounded absurd and wordy! Anyways, so he continues to tell me how I was a very good writer, perhaps the best in the class... then im thinkin' "Hey, i might get an 'A'." Nope. B.... thats whats I got... he doesnt give A's.... well i think thats dumb. If i were in a regular english class i'd have a 100% So now the question i wonder is: Why am I being punished for being smart? Is that fair? I mean come on... just cause i take harder classes doesnt mean my GPA should be at risk!!! I aint wanna be a bad wrighter! (haha, i crack myself up!) I want to be in a class that challenges me and allows me to write in a sophisticated manner, but I also want to get good grades!! So now, I am determined to get an A!! It must be done!!!

Also, on a side note.... i have decided to revolt the music program... I refuse to conform to the cookie-cutter musician. I will sing your opera, and italian, and the dumb songs from a million years ago.... but i will still sing my songs, my way... and if I slur some notes, well all the better!! At least I'll stand out! Also, people may actually enjoy listening to modern music... this old stuff is putting me to sleep!

Stupid Plays, Millions of Papers, Late Nights....and Knocking War? College!

So, i was trying to write my essay for english and my thoughts were so blocked and confused that it was impossible to get past the blinking cursor. So i thought I'd write out what I was thinking. I decided to get a blog for myself, for nights when my thoughts are so crowded that i need to write, but also to keep everyone posted! I have seen a lot of other peoples blogs, and its a really good way to keep everyone up to speed on how I am doing, since its impossible to call everyone every time something happens! So, i am using this to kind of relax and relay! lol So as of right now, school is starting to get overwhelming. I have extra things every night... Today i was supposed to see a play for a class. It started at 7:30. I watched the first overly long, overly boring first half... FINALLY it was intermission and i looked at the clock... 9:00. So i left... i was not staying there all night, especially since i have 2 essays due tomorrow morning! WoOt WoOt! lol So, I rush home... its about 9:15 and Michael calls...in not the best of moods i may add... but nevertheless, i still loved talking to him! :) Not to be cheesy, but he is just wonderful!! So we talked... I find it so wonderful how I can just talk to him about anything... how we can work things out and how we help each other! I try really hard to make him smile, and he does the same for me!! For everyone else, I'm sure thats nothing new, especially for everyone married! But it's nice for me!! Yeah, so of course silly Tashua is now super smiling, and very unfocused.... not to mention the girls from my apartment and the one next to us are having a knocking war!! Its shakin the whole dang apartment!!! HAHA i love college... minus the work! lol